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Friday, June 20, 2014

Honest Moment


My mom was reading this the other day and I just had a chance to read it. Needless to say it broke my heart.

"My mom had only one eye. I hated her......She was such an embarrassment. She cooked for students and teachers to support the family.

There was one time during my primary school when my mom came to say hello to me. I was so embarrassed. How could she do this to me? I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out. The next day at school, one of my schoolmates said "'EEEE, you're mom has only one eye!"

I wanted to bury myself. I also wanted my mom to just disappear. I confronted her that day and said " If you will only make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die? My mom did not respond......I didn't even stop to think about the words i hurled at her because I was full of anger. I was oblivious to her feelings.

I wanted to be out of that house and have nothing to do with her. So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study. Then I got married. I bought a house of my own. I had kids. I was happy with my life and the comforts. Then one day, my mother came to visit me.. She hadn't seen me in years and haven't even meet her grandchildren.

When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her and I yelled at her for coming over to the house uninvited. I screamed at her, " How dare you come to my house and scare my children!" GET OUT OF HERE NOW!!!" And to this, my mother answered calmly " Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address". And she disappeared out of sight.

One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip. After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity. My neighbours said that she died. I did not shed a single tear. They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have."

My Dearest son,

I think of you all the time. I'm sorry that I came to your house and scared your children. I was so glad when I heard that you're coming for the reunion. But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you. I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up.

You see, when you were very little, you got an accident, and lost one eye. As a mother, I couldnt stand watching you having to grow with one eye. So I gave you mine. I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me with that one eye. I wanted you to be successful in life. Till then..I love you my son.

With all my love to you,

Your mother


  And now for that honest moment. I related very heavy to this story. I am ashamed to say as a younger guy that I would make fun of my mom's singing and was not very respectful to her at all. I struggle with guilt about this almost everyday because my mom used to love to sing and would always be walking around the house sing while she worked. Now she will not sing anymore and believes that she has a horrible voice from my negative comments. Mom, I love you and I do hope that you will sing again! Moral off the story please be careful what you say to people you never know how much it will affect them.




1 comment:

  1. Aw! So much courage to be honest :). I love you, Justin. You are forgiven, just as God forgives us...as far as the east is from the west!

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